“…I’ma Show You How To Do This”

I have been having to recurring dream/vision of me saying to my deceased father “Don’t worry, I got this, I’ma show you how to do this.”   The thing that bothers me most about this dream/vision is what he says before.   He says “Listen, don’t do what I did”.   As a parent, I still can never fathom another parent voluntarily not playing a major role in their children’s lives.

One day while playing with my kids, I became very bitter about my father not being around and missing my childhood.  Growing up without my father playing a major role had a major effect on me that I never even knew.  I lost my father to the streets and drugs very earlier.  It wasn’t until my first son, Jordan being born in 2006 that my father cleaned up.  Because he wanted to be a part of his grandchildren’s lives he made a serious effort to stay clean.  In January 2008, my father passed away from pneumonia and although I never learned what to do as a father, I definitely learned what not to do.

After Jordan, I made the decision that “My curse will be my children’s blessing”.  They will never have to worry about whether Daddy can come to a game, performance or a parent/teacher night.  I felt like I missed out on a lot in my childhood, but because I know that feeling of disappointment, I never want my kids to feel that way…EVER.  I was nervous about being a good father.  I went to seminars, read books but it wasn’t until I started to reflect on how I felt in various situations that I may not know what to do but I definitely know what not to do.  Og Mandino writes that one of the keys to promote success is to avoid failure.  I think that I have seen enough failure to avoid.  Hey Dad, “don’t worry, I got this, I’ma show you how to do this”  Be blessed, #bedynamic

Tyrone “Tee” Chavis R.I.P.